A Dream

Well, let me tart off with a dream I had last night, or rather, early this morning:

Katie got out of school, or something, and I was there waiting for her. We both hugged each other as if it were the first time we had seen each other in months. Then we just laid (sp?) down and I held her in my arms and we just talked. That's it; talked. But just me holding her and us both laughing together boosted my spirits to a new high, in the dream and real life. It made me feel really, really good, because now there is no doubt in my mind that she loves me. The dream ended with one of her friends coming over and telling her that they had another class or practice to get to. So they both went back inside, and as she was talking through the doorway, she gave me this look as if to say "I love you and I'll miss you so much". It was the best dream I've ever had; so real and just... awesome, and perfect.

I'm going to send her an email later, and I thought I'd write it in here:


I know, and I'm sorry for acting that way. Just do what makes you happy, that's all I want. If you're with me when you want to be with him [DeSean], you're not going to be happy at all. Although I do want to tell you about a dream I had last night:

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The dream was so life-life, that I thought it was really happening, but then I woke up. :( It boosted my spirits, and now I have no doubt in my mind that you hlove me. I think maybe my problem is that I love you too much. I don't know if we'll be able to be just friends, becaues the love will always be there. This is all new to me, and you've been in more relationships than me. So I'm not sure what to do. I might not send anymore emails, and just wait for your call, but probably not. I love going to my email and finding messages from you. So, again, all I can say is go with whoever makes you happiest. Just please think about it a lot, and promise me that if you do break up with me, that you call one last time. I love you so much, and nothing in my life will feel right without you. I'll talk to you later, angel baby.

-Josh


My true feelings for her. I hope she takes what I said into consideration.